Sorry to say you sound too much of a self absorb bitch and im sure you are controlling too..you dont may be let guys be who they are,so they run away!!and insecure too how you reflecting your writing..you need to calm your tits down desparado..you say you loved yourself and say right now when i go on a datte..how many dates do you need to find yourself..may be you ha e all the wrong expectation..or else trust me if you so nice you wouldnt even talk..you sound pathetic to talk like this here..go remind yourself all of these in your journal..your bitchiness is contagious to me too