Annie, based on the first reply post and then latter — you have made on this thread, you kind of sounded like someone whom 'Ramailo Nepal' mentioned in his original post. You sounded like that girl 'saru' who ditched 'Ramailo Nepal' for someone else.

I particularly don't see any fault on saru's end, as she must have been longing for clean relationship. But since 'Ramailo Nepal' also discussed with her(saru) about some girl(sanju) also wanting him, for saru this obviously seemed like a guy with strings attached whom nobody wants to deal with. Saru must have sought her friends', relatives' advises and obviously they all gave thumbs down. In the context of our society, women in general listen to their families when it comes to life-changing decisions like marriage. Like Annie in this thread has given her all to please her families. No wonder, heart-broken folks like 'Ramailo Nepal' comes on some random forum and posts his predicament. In Annie's case, she was intertwined. Groom was chosen by her family, meanwhile she swayed a bit and gave her heart to someone else. Now groom is still in all hope to be with Annie. But Annie realizes that what she's doing is not right and decided to get back to her family groom. Suddenly she realizes that she made a big mistake. She ends the new relationship. Well, happy marriages and lifes are based on compromises. I'm sure Annie will soon realize that. It's considered infidelity to fool around once you are committed to some relationship. I'm happy for you that you stuck to your old relationship. Be glad that you didn't help create another 'Ramailo Nepal' guy.

Literally, a life is like a role-playing game where you make choices and that determines how your life shape up. Your life ends happy or sad based on your own decisions. We are on our own fault, we're responsible for our own problems and those who blame others for their problems, well they've some problems needed to be fixed first themselves. Good thing here, is that OP is acknowledging that he made some poor decisions in his life and that he's regretting now. Move on, everyone. We're born to be dust oneday but before that don't spoil lifes' happiness in all these sadness.