@jepayotyehi

Not sure I am deserving of the admiration. My decision is a selfish one nonetheless. I am not going back because I want to mend my country or do something for her, I actually plan to do something for Nepal but that's not why I am going back. I am going back because my old parents need me and I cannot live knowing that I pretty much abandoned them.
People have different circumstances, some of us are planning to have our folks over here after a while. Some think it is best if they stay here and their folks stay there. Nobody is right and nobody is wrong, we just do things that suits us and that's what I am doing.

As for adjusting life after returning to Nepal, I expect that but I am not sure I am ready for it. I have had a major overhaul in the way I think and my values since I left Nepal. I probably won't be able to go back to the values of my past that would have been easier to practice in Nepal. I will try to recalibrate myself a little without changing my values much. I hope not to get disappointed too much because I am not doing any favor to Nepal by going back; I need Nepal more than Nepal needs me.

Sorry Behoove to hijack your thread. Your fault on posting such a thought provoking story.