sure i will try my best though it is a long story but i will try to keep it short and sweet. I was born and raised in kathmandu very much was into my religion i belong to a chettri family . Since about the age of 9 i decided not to eat meat . i was a vegetarian my favorite god was mahankal bhairab. i was a fan of astha telivision. I searched god from as long as i remember. even though i was very much into rituals and stuff i was very much empty inside. I come from a broken home . there was always quarrel in the family i felt helpless most of the time. I was sexually abused by my mama when i was a little girl. i blamed most of it on myself i had a very bad inferiority complex. So to fit in i got into having wrong friend at the wrong time . Then came to a point where i planned suicide.Through all this there wass a little hope of someday being able to go to USA. that was my only hope to run away from alll this and start all over again. And it happened august 2006.   I was very very happy. i went to all the temples that i could before i left KTM.But after coming here my dreams where shatter knowing how hard it is to make it in usa without having support from family. i was broken hearted and had no money. This big city was full of filth as well. Experience in dhoti restaurant was horrible. I was running out of all options . while i thought of going back home with what face i do not know. But some how i met a person a man who seemed different. Something was different about this guy. He had a very positive attitude towards life and he was a happy person something opposite to me. He was a white man and people who i was living with that time told me to stay away from him because white guys will just use you and trow you. But i knew from the beginning that he was not that kind. Dose not matter what color you are anyway there are plenty nepali guys who are like that. His views were very conservative in his beliefs. He was a Christian guy. and loved the Lord its funny you respect God but i don't know if you can love God . But he did . when i would ask who does he love the most he would say God .He had a relationship with the Lord.He stayed uncorrupted by this world while knowing that we all make mistakes and God forgives us. I being a very strong hindu rejected Jesus.  But i was very curious at the mean time. So i started reading the bible which was a gibberish  for me could not understand a thing. I was getting frustrated and i prayed and asked if there be a one true God that He would revel Himself to me. That i want to know the truth. Then one day i was just staring at the cross i don't even know why and i heard a voice and it said I AM HE. The one true God. i could not believe what had just happend it was just like a veil was lifted off me. like in the bible it says that i was blind and now i can see. There has to be just one God the God who loves us the God who made us the God who has a purpose for us. We are not just like animals we are more then animals we were created in the image of God . and the astounding thing for me was that He loved me He said He died for me that is how much that he loved me. That i was not a worthless human being i was a very important person He created me for reason. After that when i opened the bible i could understand it. It was no longer gibberish for me. It all made sense to me. Brothers and sisters God loves you He has a purpose for you . In your due time He will reveal himself to you all you need to do is ask. You are very very important to you. He is a God of love . We as a christain have two commandments Love thy God with all your heart .which was silly for me before but now i can say confidently that i love him beyond anything or anyone He comes first in my life and i feel his love in my life and the second commandment is Love each other as you love yourself.   In order to love others as you do yourself you have to be able to love yourself and after knowing God i knew that i am important and i am loved . Brothers and sisters i am a very happy mother of two boys right now. God has not only changed my life but also of my family one by one they are coming to the Lord. i have see sick get healed in front of me all the mighty things of God that only one true one can do. Search and you will find says in the bible. All you need to do is to be searching if your heart is at the right place He will show you. ask and you will be given so you need to ask first. i can keep going on and on about this but i urge if there is any Christain here in saja please share your testimony as well.