Grateful to have this essay/story published by Grief Dialogues, Health Care Education. I would like to honor those who have experienced grief and loss because of COVID-19--a disenfranchised grief that has no closure. 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SITARA · Jun 1, 2021 6:24 PM · 2,460 views
Very sad to read this. It is heartbreaking. So, really what will Krishna do? In times like this I question god, if there is one. If god existed and wanted to help we would not be suffering so much. For example take Nepal. 30 million people and 330 million gods. 10 god for every single person. But the country is one of the poorest, the politicians are pretty corrupt, the rich and privileged take priority in everything. So a clear sign that the ratio of 10 god to 1 human is not working. Either the gods don’t exist and if they do, they don’t care for human plight.
chicagoan · Jun 2, 2021 12:04 PM
कथम कदाचित कृष्ण धरतीमा पधार्नु भयो भने के गर्नु होला यो सोचनीय बिसय मा पर्यो | काल संग सम्झौता गरि अहिलेको कोभिड बाट असमायिक निधन बाट बचाउनु हुन्थ्यो र सबै लाइ यो बाट बच्ने अचुक सलाह दिनु हुन्थ्यो | संजयले दरबार बसी सम्पुर्ण युद्द को जानकारी गराउनु भएको अहिले घर घरै बाट देखिने आखो देख समाचार देखेर र सुनेर ३ चित खाने छन् | गोपिनि संग रास लिला मा रम्ने कृष्ण समरमा बिकिनी संग दूधका मुन्टा छोपिने देखि नग्न बीच मा बस्त्र हिन महिला र पुरुष देखेर होईन यसरि महिला र पुरुस नग्न हुँदा पनि रतिक्रियामा नालागेको र कसैका लिङ्ग नउठेको देखेर चै अबस्य मुर्छा पार्लान | मुर्छा बाट उठे पछि उनलाइ रतिक्रियामा संलग्न हुने तिब्र चाहना लाइ दोभासेले लालटिन बजार पुर्याए पछि उनका लिङ्ग चलाई दिने देखि चुसिदिने क्रियाले उनले गोपिनी संग नपाएको तृप्ति पाप्त भै बेला बेलामा पृथ्बीका सम्पुर्ण मानब जातिको समरक्षा आदि इत्यादि को बाहाना बनाइ नया यौन तृप्ति पाउन आउने छन् | यदा यदा धर्म्स्य ... ..................................................... स्लोकको मान्यता हुनेछ | यतिनै आज |
Logan · Jun 2, 2021 12:13 PM
Thank you for those who have taken the time to read this piece. I actually posted here because I wanted to have some sort of a dialogue about COVID grief. Perhaps this is not the most appropriate forum but seeing that most of us (not including myself--I disclosed my identity a looooong tyam ago) are still incognito/anonymous, I kind of hoped that people would be able to communicate about the loss and grief of the last two years. Perhaps, someone you know, related to you, etc. Within these last two weeks, I have lost many close friends and their family members. Chetan Karki ji was my beloved teacher's husband and a very close neighbor--I cannot wrap my mind around the implications of such losses. Regarding the post itself, I am not a Krishna Devotee--my mother was. Religion gave her something tangible to hold on to. Mine was more of a rhetorical question about what would "God" any God do? COVID has devastated the people from all walks of life, from around the world. I do not wish anyone to take my write-up literally. I wish more to think about--how can we as humans transcend this tremendous grief together? Banter aside, Sajha has always been a platform for connection and empathy among the Nepalese diaspora, and with Nepalese people of Nepal from all walks of life. San, continues to host this platform despite the various transformations it has seen--and I am very thankful. Years ago, as a newbie and FOB in the US, Sajha was my go-to space where I met many interesting personalities and read insightful conversations. It continues to be a go-to place for me (though less frequent as a silent reader). Last night (on a whim), I pulled up the old postings from 14 years ago and I burst out laughing at the crazy, crazy banter we participated in. It was uplifting! Going back to COVID, some of my very young students (of primary ages) have lost their parents to the infection and it is very difficult to see their pain. Watching the current state of Nepal is painful. Back in February 2021, when I was in KTM for my mother, there were so few infected and hospitalized. Of the 18 COVID ICU beds in Patan Hospital, only 5 were occupied. Some of the private nursing homes had shut down their COVID ICU for lack of patients. I still walked around double-masked and vizored which made me look a bit crazy. In fact, every morning, as I walked to/ from the hospital, a group of young guys would stand on the side-walks and sing, "Here comes COVID!" as I passed by. For some reason, it made me laugh--a break from the heartbreaking excursion to/from the hospital's COVID Ward. Anyways, so much for somber thoughts and ramblings. :) Thank you again for reading. Stay safe and be well, Sajhaites. Last edited: 02-Jun-21 12:33 PM
SITARA · Jun 2, 2021 12:26 PM
Logan ji, Oh my, what vivid imaginations you harbor!
SITARA · Jun 2, 2021 12:36 PM
Chicagoan, Thank you. Who is GOD? What is GOD? I feel, it's the Earth's way of regaining balance--but at the cost of so much, so many from around the world.
SITARA · Jun 2, 2021 12:42 PM
मेरो दाई भाइ हरुको नाम पछि बहादुर छ , आफु भने टुहुरो जस्तो मरण च्यासे , खाने बेलामा ढोका थुने जस्तो भएर बाउ आमाले राखी दिएको बहादुर हटाएर नाम र थर मात्र राखेर SLC मा फर्म भरियो र जिल्ला प्रसासन मा गइ हटाए | बाउलाई धनि पुर्जामा भएको बहादुर नमिली के होला भनि ठुलो डर मानेका थिए र यहि मात्र एक कारण थियो बहादुर हुदा ठिक देखिने | अर्को कारण कुनै बेला भारतको पटना धार्मिक र उपचार हेतु गएको बेला धोति भाइले बहादुर का बहादुर भनेर संबोधन गरेको कारण ले पनि हटाएको हु | कोभिडको सुरुमै आफ्ना बहादुर दाइ माथि पुर्याए पछि आज भोलि चिन जानका र नाम सुनेका हरु लाइ कोभिडले सैया बाट पनि लग्यो भनेको सुन्दा आसचर्य र दुख मनाउ कम हुदै गएको छ भने गत बर्स जोतिसीले ८० नाग्दिनस भनेको हुनाले कहिँ यहि कोभिड मा काल बसेर आउँने हो कि ? वच र बचाउ लाइ गम्भीर रुपमा नलिएर हो कि भन्ने लाग्छ ! गरिब रास्ट्रका जनताले टेस्ट गराउन २५०० देखि ३००० तिर्ने क्षमता नहुने हरु र पहाडका कुन काप्चा दुर्गम क्षेत्रमा बस्ने हरु अस्पताल पुग्न पनि नपाऊने को के हाल होला ? सुनछु मधेस मात्र होईन पहाड तिर पनि कोभिड पुगी सकेको छ, यिनी हरु प्रति माया लागेर आउँछ |
Logan · Jun 2, 2021 1:01 PM
I haven't got chance to read the original article but chicagoan comment made me smile! God itself is involved in this creation through it's law of karma. God is the strictest of the strict. What happens if Sun decides not to glow just because it feels lazy? What if Moon is not happy with Earth and decides not to rotate? Dharma means we align our behaviors in a way that it is in harmony with natural law. I agree Sitara that this is Earth's act of balancing.
ujl · Jun 2, 2021 1:24 PM
Logan ji, Nepali ma OK marks lyayera pass bhayeni, aajkaal Nepali prayog nagariko le mero Nepali ali tutte-phutte cha, plus San's green button is not working! So, I will continue in English. I am sorry for your loss! I can relate to your sense of Kaal in COVID form, which was why when I went to KTM, I felt ready to meet my Kaal if it struck me. Not being dramatic there! Irony, relatives or friends bhaye pani, COVID ICU ko pahuna bhaye pachi, you belong to the Govt. as a casualty. It's still a shock how totally fractured and disconnected we are forced to be if infected. My knee-jerk reaction to many situations in KTM was anger at the "Gods!" I could stand in the middle of the road and curse at the skies--perhaps, it would have justified the emotions at the time. Perhaps, I too will come to a place of apathy or acceptance in due time. Be numb. But for now, this is the space. Ujl, Thank you for commenting. :)
SITARA · Jun 2, 2021 2:12 PM
My father's cousin was hospitalized about 3 weeks ago, he passed away. I am wondering how his wife is bearing the pain of loosing mom and husband within a month.Another uncle is still in Hospital. Now we started to know how deadly it is.
Logan · Jun 2, 2021 9:35 PM
Logan ji, I cannot even imagine what you and your family are going through at this time. My thoughts are with you. A friend of mine lost almost all the family members--for me, reading you and hearing of those affected re-opens those wounds. You take care of yourself, hajur. There is a universal collective sadness that has submerged all. Tara ni, Jan, Feb bela ko "almost no infection" per day kasari yesto bhayo? Is it just the new variant that has caused this explosion? Kasto bijog!
SITARA · Jun 3, 2021 4:54 PM
It is very sad Logan and others .. आजकल म लोक कथा पढिरहेको छु .. लोक कथामा यस्ता घटनाहरु अचम्म तरिकाले प्रस्तुत गरिने रहेछन .. उदाहरणको लागि: भर्खर पढेको "आँखी झ्याल" कथा मलाइ शुरुमा कस्तो नराम्रो लाग्यो, बच्चालाइ तर्साउने कथा किन यस्तो बनाएको होला भन्ने लाग्यो .. हुन त, धेरै मिलाएर यसलाइ सकारात्मक बनाइएको छ तर, ओरिजनल कथामा एउटा ख्याकले बच्चालाई थुत्दै लग्दै गर्छ .. मेरो बिचारमा यो बच्चामा फैलिएको महामारीको कथा हुनु पर्छ ... कीर्तिपुरका ७ जना बालबालिकालाई लाग्छ कवंले .. झ्यालबाट थुतेर लागेको हुनाले आँखी झ्याल बनाएको कथा छ .. यो प्रकाशित गर्ने संस्था, अमेरिकी फन्ड आएको प्रोजेक्ट भएको अनि, बच्चालाई नतर्साउने किसिमले प्रस्तुत गर्नु परेको ले बन्न चाँहि छेउ न टुप्पोको कथा बनेको छ .. आँफै हेरेर कमेन्ट गर्नुहोला :) https://youtu.be/yYpI9EF3X2c Last edited: 03-Jun-21 09:35 PM
AnandNepal · Jun 3, 2021 9:33 PM
AnandNepal, I actually like the narration--thanks for posting it! I can see the metaphor for the disease and perhaps the mask (?). Katha sunda jiu siringa huncha. I grew up with a few books of Nepali folk tales that used to keep me awake at night--bokshi, murkutta, chundel etc. I just did agree with the music--Bhangra rakheko jasto cha.
SITARA · Jun 4, 2021 5:57 PM
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