I know that Jas was suffering for a very long time before he passed. He struggled to stay alive. He wanted to live. He was fighting with his body which was shutting down. I hear the same things from everyone about how their children passed and it is all so similar to how Jac passed. I don't think our kids were in pain at that time. I know that Jac wasn't in any pain because he was on Morphine for a week. I wanted it that way because I couldn't stand to watch his little body shut down. He wanted to live so badly. His stomach stopped emptying too. He was struggling to breathe too. The brain seems to shut down the same way for our kids doesn't it. I miss Jac but I don't miss his pain and suffering. I just hope that our little angels are all smiling and playing and laughing and singing and dancing, up in heaven. I wish I could look through a cloud and see their beautiful faces, just once.