Usher, You could have told everything to your Meghna and I am sure she would have understood you. You could have told your situation when you were in Nepal when you heard your father is not well. You didn't mention if you met Meghna at that time..You are responsible for whatever situation you are right now! My suggestion to you is try to forget everything and MOVE ON!. I am sure it is bothering you like crazy so you posted it here so that you feel some relief! Sometimes it really helps to jot down or share what you've been going through! If you think you have accomplished your goal!, go back get a cup of black mocha from Starbucks and chill! Just move on with your life now you are in good status and are more capable of pursuing your dreams! Good luck with your life Usher Revival Waiting for a new beginning