Hey USher, your story matches with mine kind of like 50 %. I can understand your decisions u had made in tough situation. I am also in US in Arizona with same situations like you, the only thing is i have not married anyone yet and i dont want to coz some one waiting for me too. Life really changes with time, i can not say my situation will be good, but i dont want it to get worse either. I also think some time to get green card so i dont have to pay out of state fee, but i also think of my love, i just can not do it. Well i wish u luck for ur future.