OP what is it that you seek in your life or your relationship with your spouse?
Let me tell you a true story, alright here it goes;
I used to live with a very kind person, a little over a decade ago. He owned a house had a US citizenship through marriage which fell apart (south asian btw). He helped me in my college days like a brother, didnt take a dime from me for rent other than me buying groceries and doing house chores. His parents found him a nice girl and had arrange marriage. As he processed for her to come to USA with proper papers, he used to talk about the whole awkward situation he would be in when she arrives. He was so down on the whole situation that one day he even suggested i take care of her and be her man if she permits. I couldnt believe what i had just heard. Mind you, this is not some ill-will wishing kind of a guy. To this day i havent met as generous or kind person in my life leaving my parents, ofcourse. So, she arrives and he makes me pick her up from the airport and the whole situation with them while i was there with them for 3 months was super awkward. I moved to different state and used to talk to him and he just didnt have any love for her as he was some kind of robot.

After a year they had a baby and the whole relationship changed. Now they got three kids happily living life to the fullest. To each his/her own, Marriage to me is settling down and time for kids. Maybe this will change how you view life or relationships in general terms. Be content with what you have, dont go looking around somebody elses pocket.