Every soul I knew back home danced with joy, relatives were busy talking about how rich and responsible was my chosen husband. My grandmother specially seemed to be on 7th heaven, she told me with tearful eyes, you are the oldest in the family and I hope you keep our respect with your new family. I just gave her a lousy smile and ran back to my room holding my breath and my tears. Little did she know that her angel was not hers anymore. As the night fell, I lost my self to the memory lane, he had shown up half and hour late at the airport and forgot were he had parked. But he remembered my flowers and my kiss?. I blushed as I was mad and embarrassed. I was confused yet was anxious to know him. Oh, I remember how happy he was, he took me everywhere the first day as if he was going to run out of time. I told him to slow down, I said, ?Are you intending to finish showing me this beautiful city in one day?? He apologized and took me home. Sweet memories I said to my self and hugged my pillow and turned to sleep. My mother was pounding on the maid?s door next morning urging her to start the morning chores while she was preparing for her pooja and bhajan. I thought to my self nothing has changed. Same way I had left it 3yrs ago. Mother was happy I was home and she wanted me to help her ? I gave in that morning hoping I would get some serenity in my life. That morning I prayed and I prayed hard hoping that he would forgive me one day and that I could live a guilt free life. Nothing was helping me to forget him, all I could think was what if I tell my parents that I have somebody else in my mind; that I can?t fulfill their wishes and I want to live my own life. I prayed for that courage. I summoned all my thoughts and went to my father who was reading kantipur daily is his chair with his eye glasses tucked on the tip of his nose. I laughed looking at him and he smiled ?. I thought ?hope this conversation will be easy?. I told him my plans without ruffling his feather. I told him that I wanted to finish my bachelors first and think about marrying this chosen guy later. He neither agreed nor disagreed with me, so I got up from the chair thinking now I have lost my battle, my hopes and my dreams of seeing my beloved one more time.