So here it is @underwear :
You do not have, huncha ni, this "IT" factor. U might be educated, but education can't buy intelligence. i m sure u have seen the professors back in the college days, professors who can do what they are supposed to do alright and u still think "dude i feel sorry for ur dumb miserable life". then there are professors who can think one step ahead of you and u r like WOW.
@underwear i have to give one thing to u. u can write. u should have been a writer. u would have been a good writer, though very top ones need meaning in their story which i highly doubt u have in urs. ke garnu ta Nepal ma janmiyou. sabai baat SLC sakau, isc pada, ani ki ta doctor ki ta engineer banna bhaane aadesh. timro tyo writer timi bhitrai marera gayo. ani yaha aayera IT ko kuwa ma.
read some psychology and history books. it will greatly help u. then u can try ur hand at Poker again. last reminder, when u write,u should be able to say ur whole story in one sentence if u need to. maile ta suneko thiye writers get this idea abt their story in one revealing line, in AHA moment, then they expand around it. timro ta ulto jasto lagyo. u build story and then struggle to find that AHA title. u forget track of where u r going, east? west? north? south? or are we in vacuum ? life must be miserable that way. is it ?