kukurni!!!! heheehe.. no more of the old monotonous suru of the post la hehe..i feel diff now..and well gonna be diff i guess :o) ok u might feel weird not seeing them but good riddance ni ;o) hehe... i too feel weird not writing like that but hehe..well guess will get used to it in no time...:o)... smthing happened today...smthing good..(i hope its good..i feel its good..for the future..tho i dun feel too good now hehe..confusing aint i?i think i should get meself a nick ConfusedII hehehe maybe i will one day...when i get bored of this nick hehe..cos confused i was...i am..and always be...confused bro sorry for using ur line la..its not copyrighted is it?i think i should be safe to type it here...confused bro runs off from this thread ;oP or does he?dun shock me confused bro...i dun wanna get a heart attack hehe..) dyam i dunno why...hehe but since yest i was feeling happy for nothing..i mean smthing did happen..yest ..to make me feel happy hehe..but kinda had a feeling smthing was gonna happen today too...dyam im pscyhic i tell u!...well today hehehe...just is special...just realised smthing more..killed some of me demons..still got lot more...but well in time most prob i will get rid of them...maybe not all..but most...and ppl say they dun believe in demons?the world is full of demons!!i tell u!!..just look in ur own head..and u see thousands..maybe millions (or more if ur like me ;oP) manifested inside ur head...living in the shits...adn we thot shits are made in the stomache and comes out from the arsehole?hehe how wrong we are...we got so much shits in our head..and dunno how to get em out..anyone got any solution?other than to open ur head with with a clean and talkayko khukuri hehe....well let me know if u have..i guess there are tonnes out there who wants to know :o) dunno why today i just feel mayb i lost smthing..and never will get it back..(i know its me demons sayin that..)cos deep in me heart..i just know and feel....one more step towards destiny..:o)....just made me realise whatever happens i wont ever lose that special thing :o)... dueri ko gett playing mood pani kya majha.....gham pani ksato majaley shine gareyko...come clouds floating too...and they look so nice ...like they belong there...but dunwe dread seeing clouds esp the dark rain clouds..when we want is a sunny day..cos in the end..like it a not ..clouds bellongs there up in the sky...just meant to be there hoina?..tho some ppl dun like it..others love it..:o)...i dunno i just like seeing those clouds up there right now..(looking at them from me window now hehe)seeing them flotaing by...well makes me feel light too...like well im there..floating ...up in the sky...the spacious sky instead of this room of mine..a spacy room it is..but yet..i feel crampped in it..and tho i feel crampped in it...why do i like being here..smtimes stay here for like 20hrs a day...or more..(just get out to get some fresh air or to eat hehe)if i skip uni classes (me seat must be the warmest seat ever...esp since me arse warms it for too long...dyam do i smell smthing burning ...*sniff sniff* hehe ;oP...some tasty arse cookin anyone want any?;oP...hehe) dunno why i like to stay here..tho i feel so crammped...well i always loved the open ...guess i feel secure behind these walls..nothing can hurt me here..it protects me..shields me...tho i do feel like im trapped here smtimes..glad i have this window to view into the ourside world...smtimes its raining outside...smtimes sunny..but well..feel so safe..being in here...lookin out..lookig out at the world..esp now..dyam i was up there in the sky...free ...floating...looking down..and looking at everything...everything in this world...and seeing everything...esp smthings that means a lot to me :o)..seeing them smile and laffing..and being happy...and yet they dun notice me..wah kay masti feeling hehe.. dyam just realise smmore things to be happy about today..gonna call me parents me today...(well hope they are at home...cos its tika today..)havent talked to them for ages...cos well was stressd...and didnt wanna spread me stress i guess..tho i knew talking to me mum always made me feel so much better..well...i guess she just makes me feel safe and loved...urghh hate the times i tell her not to call..cos well im freakn stressd and she calls and well i just shout at her for calling at the wrong time...esp since im rushing..but urghh after i shout..the next moment i realise...urghhh....i dunno why we (i hehe)cant keep me emotions in check..before i say smthing..thando dimak le kaam garnu parcha bhaneyra taha cha..yet..urghh yo dimak kay chis ho!!right ho ki wrong..cos it does tell u to smtimes...and lying is it ever right?tho u do it for the goodness..hah whats goodness..u tell me..im ConfusedII hehe... anyways i just feel like baskin in the sun..gonna get out of this seat..and feel some warmth of the sun...well gotta appericate what we have..(dyam the number of times when it rains..i go out luki luki..hoping others dun se me...trying to get wet...and feel the rain...goin insane eh?nah just being me..weirdo a freak hehe i dunno just feel like feeling things..:o)...) adn dyam i thot i was in babble mood..(have been since yesterday..)and babble i did yesterday hehe..in smwhere else :o)..thot a change as good and a fren introduced me to this new place..and it did feel good there..was made to feel so welcomed ..but i dunno in some ways..i felt kinda alone there too..tho was feeling good babblin hehe...and here i thot i was gettn tired..too old..but i dunno today i just realise...how i feel..in the end..i just feel smthing here..that i never will feel anywhere else..how bored i am..or tired..well there is this feeling i get when im here..i dunno if its cos of some ppl or some one..well time ill tell whats gonna happen..for now im going down to back in th sun..do some kickups...and get scorched hehe..... dyam..i cant get off me seat!!..someone put some superglue there?or roots have grown from me arse..(old joke hehe) hehe... ok im outta here..hope i can send this in one post..san dai no llimits for me pls..cos im danny ;oP...hehe.. hope u have a great Tika...and Dashain..miss u lot :o) cheers...:o) danny (dyam just got a call from a fren..wishing me happy dashain...out of nowhere too..wah wah wah..yo shit world pani ke ke ke garcha..ho!..dimak phuskadi sakyo..hehe)