if I would be following what UJL sadhu maharaj is recommending then I would for sure be mentally ill. :) :)
Guys, it's the loneliness that is taking control over your mind and ruining stuff.
make a circle with nepali and dhotis although you feel like they are filthy jerks and bunch of aholes.
try other ethnicity as well just to have someone to talk some shady stuff..
don't you guys know the story of how sajha is formed? let me put this way, how san(ey) got the motive for sajha?