confused bro, let me tell u the story of my cousin. He is MBA gradute and first executive young guy to work for DHL. He got lots of award but he got married to gal to his parents sacrificing the gal he loved. On the nite of " suhaj rat" gal tell him that she is not happy with marriage coz she was forced by parents. The days past by...we thought there is something worng with my cousine. We gave him pressure but he didnot speak. Finally, he showed us the diary of his wife and her handwriting on about her journal. It clear the scenario. One nite, he left home and job without telling anyone. He was in intense pressure of our relatives, He went for killing himself. He was stopped by some stranger with long bread and some moral value. Only thing he taught him was" son world is full of achivement and it is in air but if dont know how to get it" I am sorry. He followed him to entire india, he was lost. We annoced his data in radio and posted his pic in tv. He came back after 4 yrs as long beard, moustace and in sadhu form. The first thing he said to me was" i finally realised what my purpose to be in this earth". I understand that along with my mum but non others. I saw so much brightness in his face everseen. He was able to read your brain and face. I asked him " bro how u survive without money" he said " aajingar ko ahara daiba le juraucha" i hope it make sense