I really don't call to Nepal. May be I call my family once in a year. Days ago i talked with my dad after 2-3 years. I want to go to Nepal forever and never come back to USA as looking at all the rich white people I feel like I am undeveloped, ugly, uneducated this and that. I messed up college as I went to college for 7 years and drop out. But when I see al my friends and others settling in US, I feel like not to go. I worry that if I go to Nepal, I would waste all my savings and not start any business. Don't know what to invest in Nepal. I want to be closer to the family. My mom and dad getting too older. They always tell me to return and get married. I worry that I am already old and would not get any descent woman. I worry where to work and where to get money, I mean insecure all the time.