hey beachlife, I hear you dude !! I actually identify with what you must have felt after leaving ktm. For me, it's only been 8 months since i left nepal, and it's already difficult living my life without my gf by my side. Few weeks after i left nepal, my gf and i were constantly in touch with each other and met almost everyday online. We were always voice chattin' on the internet and even talking on the phone often. But now, the communication between us has been dying slowly and , i wonder, if it will come to a complete hault after some time. The time we have been apart is just 8 months, and we still have to be this way for next 4 or more years. and i wonder how long we are going to last ? Another thing ur posting reminded me of was ur gf sending the CD. Why do girls do this? May be it's their way of emotionally blackmailing us ! Even my gf sent me this CD, which was filled with senti songs reminding me of our time together back home. It was a journey back time for me. Damn....... why does distance have to play a big part in relationships ?? Why does it have to be the end of such a beautiful relationship we shared?? i just wonder this at times.... even if i really really wanted things to work out between two of us, i am pretty convinced it wouldn't due to the time and the distance apart. ( unless, ofcourse, we were in some kind of a fairy tale ) With all the beautiful women and the temptations surrounding me, i wonder how long before i give into the tempation ! long post rite here............ just ignore my blabbering. beachlife, don't worry dude, there are greater sinners rite here in sajha. (not saying that you are one ......... or am i ?)