I came into the States in early 2000s. Then, I spent most of the time in midwest. Afterwards moved to New England. I was jobless for several months. I couldn't get health insurance from the company I worked for. When I asked for it, they quoted me $ 800.00 per month which was impossible for me to pay with the annual salary of $ 50k and a big family. Thus, I thought to quit rather than work for the blood sucker. After being jobless, finally, I got a job from temp agency. Wherever I worked thru temp was a hectic job with drunkard coworkers. They used to smell like a hell but were permanent employees. I was totally amazed to see what kind of workers the company trust for. Is it only because of their ethnicity? I saw a 90% blind Caucasian lady with the fat glasses working in a Respiratory Device manufacturer. She was permanent so paid $ 15/hr for building two of them. In contrast. I got paid $ 9/hr for tens from the temp .

As we know it is easy to get lay off when you work for temps. I was compelled to switch jobs. I drove almost 100 miles every day. My commute depended upon my luck. Likewise, I was offered a gas station job with the reference of fellow Nepali friend I met in indian store. Although the owner was ready to provide me a flat to live and pay $ 3000/month for a 12 hr shift of seven working days schedule, I rejected it because I thought it's better to work legally thru temp making $ 13.50/hr. Also, I didn't like the gas station job as the owner was Pakistani. My instinct didn't allow me to work for them. Therefore, I started a new temp job. I know I did a very good decision. I was financially very weak but I dared to live with dignity than working for cowards. After all, I was a US citizen by then. I know what is right and what is wrong.

However, today, I am in such a place where my boss and his favorites are always behind me. My insurance is from the State. So, they think I live in social benefit which I am not eligible for. They taunt me stating I have a degree in Social Welfare. If they can prove I am not eligible, then, I respect their judgement. Moreover, they are always after me without any reason. I have two bachelors degree whereas they have none. They make fun of poverty of Nepal. I know they do that because they lack knowledge of Nepal and me. I bet Nepalese are far educated and capable than them. I satisfy myself saying they are still in 19th century while we are in 21st century. The funny thing is that one moron said "don't share any information to Nepali government, it passes information to Pakistani government." I know what to share and what not to. My intuition never supports anti social elements and always believe "never betray your bread giver and country." I know my family values are far greater than them. In fact, I work hard and am very focused. Though, I go slow, I always complete whatever is assigned. So, the people like statues are scared of me that I might be the reason for their lay off. The "No Sales" are always hatching conspiracies to eliminate me. But, I am the most honest worker fighting for the existence of the company. Those cowards don't know the company collapses if they try to suck in blood like a leech for their benefits and retirement.

I know one asian (chinkie) guy who worked with the fellow citizen cheated the company for own benefits. As I became a savior of the company, I am his constant target. He calls me "sick" and threatens to talk to supervisor for anything. I know I don't socialize often like other fellows which is my weakness. It is being more as egoistic comes with more qualifications and skills than your coworkers. I have advanced levels on everything which is very hard for them to digest. This "Chinkie" guy wants to take advantage of my mistakes (which I mentioned to my boss and HR). I was amazed to see my name in drug test. So, I was shocked and the coworkers booed me for it. Thus, I disclosed I have depression and taking medication, rest everything is fine. Now, my boss and his favorites harrass me for this thing which is being faced by 50% of Americans. My doctor said it is common problem in USA. She said most of the people face depression in America. I have realized many coworkers and even my bosses are depressed. I can read their faces as I have experienced it. I think my depression is letting me become more responsible. I can face my problems without any fear now. I am fearless than ever. Therefore, I am more productive than ever. 

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