Hi Mazzarella,

I knew a guy  long time ago, who went through the exact - similar experience as yours. He had a similar messed - up childhood. Here's his testimonial:

http://www.endtimeharvests999.com/testimony11.htm


In the end, he was diagnosed with serious mental issues and was shipped back to Nepal. With my experience while dealing with this person, I suggest you to seek professional help, instead of religious help and preaching about it.

I'm very sorry for what you needed to go through.

HTH.