@bittertruth
Daju you seriously need to bang someone. You are in high level of 'thokna napako frustration'. 
But dont worry when i am here have no fear. Daju email me and i will find one for you. But please,
asto 'thokna napako frustration' badyo bhane khattam huncha. 
And bro you sriously think about 'tantra, jiwan,yog, divinity . . .'?
Just try this "open it, rub it and feel the fun"