Thank you all of you guys sorry couldnt thank personally but i m sure you guys are great human being. This is a good therapy . we nepalese proved again how helpful and friendly people we are which we are renowned in this world. Thank you brothers and sisters for taking time to write down for me. I feel proud that im  surrounded by our warmth heart of my own nepali people. 

The thought came to my mind not a long ago maybe a month or so. Heres my story. Been here for 6-7 years on F-1 visa. Couldnt graduate due to some negligence of mine. I dont have to blame anyone on this. Out of status for about 4-5 months now. I dont see a light at the end of the tunnel. Planning to file for asylum due to an advice from some of my friends. BUT my biggest fear is what if i get rejected and the immigration officer orders me to get deported. I cant even think about going back empty handed no education no money face full of shame! so going back is not even an option for me now. This thought is hovering around me that if i have to go back i wud rather ..............