I can't tell you what to do to keep your mind off the suicidal thoughts, but it seems to me that this has to do a lot regarding your out-of-status. So, first and foremost, you could try to resolve that. Have you talked with your int'l adivsor yet? It is amazing what talking can do. I remember a incident in college where I couldn't pay off a 2K which was required for me to take an internship for the summer there was no condition attached to it. I went to the financial advisor, pleaded my case, asked me to give me options and sorted out in 20 minutes. The key is, you need to go talk. It is amazing what talking can achieve in this country. If you can't resolve this with your current institution, i am sure there are institutions that will take you in despite your failed status. I know a couple of friends who've done this in the past.

And I don't know going to an american counsellor can particularly be effective. We are all alone here yet our identity is very different in this rogue country. I would rather talk to family and friends. They might not help you, but they'll help you to make right decisions.

as somone already said, Suicide doesn't solve anything. it only makes it worse! and about achieving, it is all relative my friend.