while back i came to this country as a PhD sutdent in F1 visa status. during my academic career i have seen may friends come to US with DV GC. many times i have been dissappointed for the fact that i have been filling the eDV every year and never won the lottery. but what made me happy at the begining was the respect that those frens would have for you. even though their possibility of getting into grad school but fatter, they never got into one. i dont know the reason as i never dared to ask. possibily becasue they have more opportunity to explore unlike f1 who have to study if you want your status to survive.

this was in the begining. with time i have seen changes in those frens. or may be its just my thought. they way they used to talk to me and they looked me was not the same. it appeard as if i didnt have anything that i deserved to be respected for. its not that i lust respect from my frens. i was so much absorbed in figuring out how to get out of this grad school odreal that i never had thought i had something to be respected for. bottom line i was busy taking care of my shit that i never cared what people thought about me.

now it feels like shit. i have lost my frens. they arent the same anymore. and the sad part is i never knew what did i do wrong to deserve this. or where did our views disaggred. i dint come to the us to be better then my frens nor i came here to prove anything. i just found out an opportunity to run away from my misery.

i never understood why people have such an opinion. the differences between F1 and DV is worse here in the US than the caste system in nepal.

its just a green card