The problem is not with your girlfried, it is with you dude. Suck it up.  Too much hindi movies I guess.  I take it you are a virgin, have you ever masturbated imagining some else, Well morally speaking that is wrong too. Well the point is suck it up. you sound like a loser, the girl doesn't deserve you, she deserves someone better.  Kissing a cousin: - what is that?  I am a virgin because I want to save myself bla bla bla and I go around kissing my cousin .....