The main thing that I am trying to capture is the pendulum effect.

The pendulum starts at the right most location. That is when you are first in Nepal, before you left America. That is position A.

And when the Pendulum is in the leftmost position, it means that you are you in America. That is position G.





Position G: Living In America

Position A: Living in Nepal


So there are many people in position G (in America), who, when talking to their relatives in position A (in Nepal), tell them, "Listen, don't come to America, you don't know how good you have life in Nepal. In Nepal, you are free to be yourself. You don't have to apologize to anyone for acting and being a Nepali."

And the people in Position A (in Nepal) who want to come to America say back to their relatives, "What? Now that you are settled and happy in America you are telling us to be satisfied in Nepal? We want to travel and see and experience the beauty that is America. How dare you tell us to stay in Nepal while you are enjoying all the luxuries of America? Do you know how difficult life is in Nepal? Do you have any idea what we have to go through here just to survive day to day? Do you know all the thuggery, insecurity and intimidation there is in our daily life here? Do you have any idea of the kind of problems we go through?"

On the other hand, the people in position G in America are trying to tell their relatives in Nepal: "Please try to understand, I want to come back to Nepal. That is where my heart is. I want to feel at home in Nepal. There is a vacuum in my heart that can only be filled with 'Nepali-ness' (Nepali-pan). Please don't tell me to remain in the States. I have had enough of America. My heart feels dry. I am dying to experience the wetness of the culture of Nepal. I am dying for a sense of familiarity, home, security."

And the people in position A in Nepal are telling their American relatives (in position G) , "You are spoilt and don't know what real problems are anymore. Why would you possibly want to come to Nepal? What do you think is here? We are all trying to get out of here because of all the problems here. And you are saying that you want to leave your career, job and car and house and come to Nepal? For what?"