I wanted to re-iterate something that Pulsar Beats said more strongly.

I know that many of the people advocating for athiesm are doing it to be helpful. They want their brothers to invest in something concrete and stable. They don't want to see their brothers getting lost in a world of confusion.

The most important thing in your search for truth is to have a consistent sense of reference. In many ways, that is what your self-honesty is. But whatever it is, just make sure it is consistent, concrete and that no matter how much you change your other ideas, your beliefs or whatever. Never ever lose that consisten sense of reference, otherwise you will get super lost in life.