What kind of a movie would you think this was? Have you seen a movie like this?
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Tall claims requires tall proof. But what happens if what you go through in life is so wild...and feels so far fetched to others that you know that they would refuse to believe it, unless you gave them enough proof. But your tale is so wild that you struggle to come up with the vocabulary that would allow you to communicate this tale with the vividity that would do the tale justice.

So years go by and you realize that you have not communicated your tale. And the longer time passes by, the more and more you have difficulty believing that your tale was true. The more and more far fetched it seems even to you. And you find yourself struggling to believe in yourself. You are struggling to believe in your own story. The world has moved on from the time your story happened. But you haven't because your tale never received the legitimacy that you sought. To reject your story would be to lie to yourself. You have too much pride to do that. But, you still don't have the vocabulary to be able to communicate your story the way you would like to--the way it would do your tale justice.

The more time passes, Would you slowly stop believing in your own truth? Would you slowly change your own version of reality in language that others would understand?
What happens when you feel that your belief in your own truth is so far fetched that you come across as arrogant to yourself to hold unto the truth of your own life that few understood? And you slowly find yourself telling yourself, "No one accepts my version of reality, so how could I have the arrogance to believe it? How dare I be so arrogant?"

And what happens if you abhor arrogance as a quality? What happens then? What happens to your truth? What happens to your belief in your self? What happens to your self-esteem? How can the truth of your story still survive within you now? Which one gets crushed so that the other may survive?

You are someone who believes in others. You believe that people rational creatures that believe in true things. You believe that the world accepts that which is true and rejects that which is false. What happens to your self-image in light of your opinion of other people and where they stand when they can't accept your truth? Do you reject yourself? Do you minimize the truth that you have lived? Do you reject them? Who takes the hit?

What happens to how much them believing in your truth matters to you before you can allow yourself to believe in your own wild tale? Will you continue to value their opinion? What happens to your self-esteem? What happens to your opinion of others? What happens to your truth? Which one changes? How do you justify which one wins and which one loses?

The problem is that...you can't find the vocabulary to communicate your tale to the world in a way the world would understand it. And the more time passes and you can't communicate your tale to the world in vocabulary that they can empathize and understand in, the longer and longer they don't give you the legitimacy to include your tale amongst the priviledged who can claim that their story is true, and not a figment of your imagination.
But you have too much pride. You find it insulting to have your story in the fiction section, when you know in your heart that it is a true story.

And you die thinking that your own tale was a figment of your own imagination and that it wasn't true. And you died accepting the lie that the world painted of who you are and what your story truly was. And the reason you did this was you didn't feel the world was ever ready to be to truly accept who you were deep inside your heart. And you couldn't reveal to the world what they would reject of you. You never found the vocabulary to be able to tell your story in a way that you knew the world would accept you.

What a quandry that would be, eh?

What would this kind of movie look like, do you think? How would such a movie be?