I am repeating myself here again. Its a b***s**it idea. Just let this idea go from your head.

and trust me itsn't only you. There are hundreds of people(that includes me too) out there who have similar situation like you and worse that that older than you. you are just 23 not that old and trust me you can and will do a lot better in your life. Just stay focus on your goal, and try to get it and one day you will get it. And don't get worry about others,  aarule yesto gare wosto gare wa yesto garen wosto garen bhannu ma kehi phaida chaina....

You know it too, there is dawn after that darkness. You will have your dawn too...