Hi Demon (rachas)!
Let me share my experience. I go through depression now and then, at least once in a month, lasting for couple of days. I feel like giving up everything and going to jungle to live as a "sanyaasi" (plz don't laugh!) but I can't meditate and I am afraid of wild animals too. I like to watch good movies, read a novel or do nothing. I just ponder on the causes of the depression and face it, accept them because I just think it as a phase of the life. I also take some days off from the work to be with me and myself, not giving a damn on anything. It is so easy to be depressed in this country as u would have a same routine life without any break. No relatives or frens would be available when u badly need to see them. Seriously, this feeling will pass after somedays. Then, I realize depression is just a part of a normal life. At last, I think u r the best friend of urself, other people can assume or try to imagine but u know how it feels. Express ur bottled up emotions in any way. I don't know how? But sometimes u can say it loud when u r alone, be careful of forbidden words. he he!
Remember u know what works and what not!
Take care !
Crazy