I totally agree with Tamanglakola. It is struggle at first but after you're on the right path life does get better. Asia is just another continent like Middle East or Africa. There is nothing to be ashamed of, and you should not be ashamed becasue you're of Asian heritage. Killing yourself will not do any good to you and your family. It will cause much more pain for them.

"Only he who has seen better daus and lives to see better days again knows their full value" by Mark Twain.