I persuaded myself I’d be happy. You had taken over my mind
and my soul and I wanted you. I seriously don’t recall what it was about you
that enticed me and I guess I will never know it till I get rid of you.

I bid farewell with a smile and sense of freedom to the tears
and warm hugs which I wanted to run away from. I thought to myself, No more
shall I be strangled in the beliefs and values which make no sense to me, no
more shall I have to convince myself to wake up every morning and make myself believe
that I am wrong.

The bitter arctic weather was a warm welcome, I was alone
and for that I was ecstatic. I was Free, free to be with you. I had heard a lot
about you, I believed I had seen you and finally to get to feel you, it was a
dream come true but where are you? I still can’t find you so what was it that
made me persuade you?

Wow I am confused!!!!!!