Posted by: zenith0071 February 15, 2010
Frustation of an engineer
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Thank you all for your comments and criticism. I found the reply from "I am Bahun" easy to adapt - keep it simple. Einstein's theory was to keep things simple. The simpler things are, happier we will be. Again "God and heaven" is the easiest solution, if we couldn't delve deeper into that matter. I, personally, used to be very religious - like I said From brahmin family with typical religious parents. But as I grew up, a lot of questions started haunting me, for example, what if there is no god? (my belief will be shattered) If there is god why there are still bad things happening? are human mind independent even god built us all? even then at what point of time, god suddenly thought about the creation? and what was god doing before that? But now I would like to call myself Agnostic, just to be on safer side. Or, it makes more sense for me not to define "intangible". Human mind is inquisitive; and if you think, you must conclude yourself as Agnostic. For me "Randonmess" theory is more plausible to accept. Nothing is destined, whatever happens are outcome of randomness. For man, which has thousands or variables and most of them are psychological and hence very difficult to understand, "Saajha" gave the name "emotional swing" for "randomness".Relations may not be made in heaven. Good possibility that there is no heaven or hell. These are just the imaginary places created by our ancestors, because they foresaw our future. They anticipated that there should be "control" to our rampant desires. If you reveiw our holy scriptures,  our tradition you will find a lot of flaw and this is because these are all norms set by human at some point - and human mind is fallible and selective.
Nothing against our religion and cultures, these are the things that I am/were going through, so cannot even take the help of God.
@Saajha, believe me I used to notice all those grammatical mistakes you mentioned. I even think 'ignorance is not an excuse'. You cannot back off saying that this is your second language. If you do it, you have to make it. But also, to err is human and I hope you will have divinity inside you to forgive.
Nothing ostentatious beside writing "engineer". Just wanted to emphasize error in me. My narrow mindedness - I always thought hardwork and fun cannot co-exist. I refrained myself from most of the fun and kept it for future and the foolish thing is I used to be so happy and proud of my decisions. Now, I see myself as a jerk, a guy with no life, loser; you name all that sort of things and I am those. Worst of all, I am not happy with my situation. And the reason is stupid-  I followed the rules, refrained myself from being a free-spirit, never smoked, drank beer once, never ran after girls, supressed my desires. But I confess that I have watched porn, once in a while, haunted with temptation to drink alcoholic bev. with friends and freak out.
I agree with saajha that there is no perfection and people who are right today could be wrong tomorrow, because we are in a constant state of flux. Otherwise couple happily "love married" would never divorce after sharing together for 20 some years. My role as an onlooker for 27 years of my life, what I have noticed is 80% of the relationships are certain to fail, mainly due to our "expectations" which I think is main reason for misery in the world. Out of those who get married more than 90%, become dissatisfied with their relationship at some point. Results can be observed in free country like USA - every 3 out of 5 american marriages end up with divorce. But these data do not, to any extent, support that soulmates do not exist. Soulmates do exist. If we look for a soulmate we do not sleep around with 10 wrong ones and lose our dignity and virtue to find one right one; and after couple of years find that this 11th one dont know how to cook spaghetti. We wait for that person, when we think we are ready, and we do all the good possible things to keep that relationship moving, never complain about the burnt spaghetti. Or else, if we think that marriage is a compromise or cessation of freedom, its not even necessary to get married. Love is to help us make progress in our lives, not to entangle us in it. If we have to apply "dont ask dont tell" policy in our relationsip that means we are not communicating. We were talking in one of the seminars that most of the projects fail due to lack of communication. What could be expected from a relationship that is based on fear of each other's past and resulting prevarications?? It would be more like politics. I never liked politics, by the way. And the reason is pretty straightforward. By the time you choose and enter one party, feeling of supporting the interest of your party and your people automatically preceed the interest of nation and its people. And once you accidentally lie, you have to defend it to maintain your reputation. Love should not be like this.
Anyways, I wish y all a very happy Valentines day - love for nature, music, family and friends, poor and disabled around us, love for god and goodness make us all great lovers.

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