You're most welcome...thanks for coming out and sharing your story. You were quite young at that time so easily can make some mistakes as u see it now...guess it was most a horrid feeling to be told by some boy to stay away from the girl u love. Do u think it was actually her that wanted u to stay away? Just curious..because i have heard of family members or jealous guys who try and mess things up by apparantely speak for the girl.  Anyways, not goin to try and suggest u do anything since i don't know what is best here, but glad u felt better releasing this bit of tension here. 

That is quite a story my friend...cheers for sharing it. You are right in so many ways...you didn't regret some things as without them, u wouldn't be who u are today. Sometimes it does take something drastic to learn lessons and change for the better. And also like the fact that u regret not treating that Mexicano chica right....it's a big thing to own up when u did do something wrong, many others let pride take first place, stops them from admitting their mistakes ultimately continuing hurting others along the way. Kudos to u for your wise thinkings.  

I too had the same problem when i was younger....always clammering up and stuttering when it came to talking in front of people, i was a shy and nervous kid like u. I think i changed when i asked myself, ' What the hell am i so afraid of?' There is nothing we should be afraid of in fact! After that, i always took deep breaths, looked people in the eye, thought about what i wanted to say and deliver my talk with the thought that i am just as good and capable as others. In time through coaching myself and my thoughts, i developed some confidence by pushing myself out there to talk in front of people, i.e. volunteer to do a presentation for my group work in Uni. I began to get more confident as i saw that people were interested in my talks and that was very encouraging. Overall, u can strengthen yourself when u go out there and do things u don't particularly like.

Chanaa_ Tarkaari,

Interesting story...well u was only 13 at the time and at that age not in the habit of thinking things through just like rest of the youngsters. So u are all grown up and feeling remorseful which is a good thing as you didn't mean to hurt your friend! I actually learnt a valuable lesson whilst reading your story...next time i need to catch a thief or somebody, touch his/her heel with toe-tip right? Thanks for that! 

Sunita,

Hey honey, sorry to hear about your experience....that is such a hard thing to deal with. I understand the regret, u feel like u made the biggest mistake of your life possibly.... but i think there are times in life we just don't seem to make the right decisions and fall into situations that weren't in our ideals. Like most people have said, a mistake is a mistake, only u know how sh*tty it feels, but its definitely one of life's lessons. How were u supposed to know that later on u would go on to regret leaving that other guy in Nepal...you're only human my dear. Who knows what situation would have come out marrying that Nepal dude lets say, it definitely seemed it would be rosy as hell but who knows in later years. I was with someone committedly, told my parents about him, wanted to marry him, he was bliss....until later on the guy just changed from being into the most lovable person into a selfish b*rstad. That's just my experience though. I just say, forget about what could have been and look to making your present and future situation work. Everything in life is hard work at the end of the day, nothing is handed down on a silver plate. U have a beautiful kid and he/she loves u to bits. Wish u all the best and thanks for sharing your story.

Magdadela,

Most of all have grand dreams and aspirations, especially for our country. You wanted recognition and achievement for for Nepal, and that in itself is a noble gesture. It doesn't matter that you didn't achieve winning the Nobel prize for Nepal, not many of us have been able to do much for Nepal, it's difficult so don't be so hard on yourself. Don't stop wishing for better things and having optimistic thoughts, its a good way to be, better than a negative person. Well personally, i think that you shouldn't regret, u had the best of intentions at heart.