Sunita, based on what I read, I don't think your marriage is totally that bad. Further, you're basing your judgment on the guy who loved you on a hypothetical sense. How'd you know that the guy truly loved, in stead of his feelings being nothing more than mere infatuation? You talked about someone who loved you before you came here. I'm not saying he wouldn't love you but don't you think you're stressing too much on hindsight?

This reminds me of a friend of mine who left the "love of his life/ the girl who loved him the most" back home. Wasn't he an idiot? He dissed a beautiful and kind-hearted girl here for his "love" back home. But when he went back 2 years later, she told him right on his face that her feelings were a bit immature. I can sense some romaticism in your opinion and I wouldn't necessarily think that you'd be happier with him. Further, if you really went on to get married to this guy, surely, the guy has something! Marriage is a work, as I hear. Of course, you're more experienced on this matter ( assuming you're in early/mid 30s) but even then, I think its pointless to wish that you had been with a guy who "loved you" back in the days....