Stupidta,

In some ways I do believe that marriage is destined. I meet him and I married him, probably this was destined. Who knwos?

But again when I think about it in detail, I remember the times I made my decision. No one was there to tell me do this or that. I made my choice. I feel somewhere I choose what I wanted. May be momentarily my fate made me selfish and made me choose what I wanted (rather than someone who shed tears for me, waited for me for years, loved every moment spent with me.... mostly cared for every little comfort for me. My best friend, who loved me always set me free and said if you come back to me I was yours if not I was never yours. His thoughts were vast. We never fought because he always understood where I was comming from. He supported all of my feelings at all times when I needed moral support. Many more ...............

But when I came to states, I became selfish I have to say. I choose someone who was much educated in terms of books. But I realise knowledge comes from within and not from books. No matter how many certificates you have, if you are not knowledgeable in terms of life, then that education is of no value. I made my choice and I have been living with it. But I regret this more than anything else. My intention was just to share. And it may  help those who may make mistakes like mine.

I do love my kid's father but I always wish if he was the man who loved me, my best friend...the one who I left far behind.....