that was not frustration...absolutely not! we usually hear foreigners saying one or two good words about Nepal..‘Nepal is beautiful’ or ‘Nepal’s beauty’ etc etc. if i am not wrong, they were/are referring to Nepal’s nature. quite a few among them, those who get chance to mingle with Nepali family or live in a village for sometime, have positive impression on the ethos we Nepali have. our social characteristics, especially in the villages far from highway, in spite of hardship and hunger, embody a beauty, which we can hardly imagine in a society infested with consumerism, materialism, commercial values (no sarcasm to these either, i am part of it). actually, nostalgias crashed into my mind when i saw doko bokeko dai..i did not have any difficulty to get basne thau, khanekura, paani and sometimes citamol too when i had to go to rural areas for work..certainly citamol was not local herb yet they offered me that too to get over the fever. they, WE, are caring people. yes, this is other half of Nepal’s beauty which i was talking about and which, i personally find wonderful to that of the first half.  having said this, i am with you on the despairs and development issues you have mentioned in your blog. thank you!