Dekchidriver, in your essay that I read a couple months back, you pretty much summed up what life is like here in the US. For every indivudual it is different here. I think it boils down to one question. Would you trade your life here to being back again in Nepal where life wasn't any better? Come to think of it many of us have traded our lifestyle to one that is more promising. If one's life was better in Nepal or more fulfilling, I think there is no reason to live here.

My life is "ok" here but compared to what it was in Nepal it is better. I miss my family and friends now but when I was there I didn't feel good with them either. Why you would ask - pretty much because of financial hardships in the family and friends who were too rich to fathom my crisis. At least I'm able to accomplish something here and provide for my family to some degree. That's what is a little satisfying.

I was able to put myself through college and continue to strive for the better and amass some wealth by working hard. I still have a low paying job but I realised that in this country you can make it if you work hard and do not encounter a health related problem or meddle with the law. No matter how shitty life is here, it must be far less than what it could be in Nepal. No wonder many don't want to go back or are too ashamed to go back if you turned out a loser. Given the choice, I'd rather live in Nepal but I have my problems, so I'd rather be here.