brother Cocola...,,,u need to be chilled  out,,i know how deep it hurts, i have been through this situation too...i was in hell for yesrs and yrs...BUT NOT WORTH IT...by the time passed by u 'll be fine..u'll be alrite'..life goes on brother....one advice though,   think about her only negative side and bad  things she had done to you, do not think about quality time you spent with her ,trying to hate her as much you coud..that helps u lot to be strong ...worked for me!!! good luck..