Felt like somebody's speaking from inside me. It is really tough, but isn't something pulling us all to stay in this situation. Moreover, isn't it a surprising, and obviously, misfortune that everyone's looking for someone to share something? Of course, sathiho, yaha kura garera ananda micha tara kura garne kohi hunna, right !! I've been feeling the same for more than 4 years now. Now, another tension is starting next month when my OPT starts. It's always one after another, never ending. But as "ctal" said, there's still hope, something that is letting you not to fall. You have your home back there, whenever you want to go, right !! Well, let's hope something good, something pleasing.