i know many of us have faced difficult situation regarding maintaining our status.  i have been through a lot too.  only advise i can give at this time is to try to maintain your status.  join some school/ summer classes.  get I 20 from community college for fall or from other uni and save your status.  once you save your status, you can think of something else.  if you can get your I 20 withing grace period, you will be fine.  if you have to go to nepal, thats ok too, you can apply to masters/phd program and come here again.  life is not easy my friend, be strong.