RKJ,

   i respect your true love but more than that, i respect your hard work and  achievement. its not in everybody's hand to success in life as you did despite being so poor. what i want to tell is that if she wants to go with her parent's wishes then let her go, let her marry with a guy from her caste. dont feel that you losed her, you let her go, you have already made her yours since you let her stood first in the class in school. so rather than keeping yourself depressed or confused, find a girl for yourself who becomes happy in your success not in your failures. love your family. dont run after a girl. save what you have achieved, of course, through many hard times...