WOW! Totally refreshing. I liked the story, liked the psychological dialysis, liked the way the writer is talking with himself making readers ponder upon what is being said and done and why. Being a psychology minor myself, I see where the diversion and dilemma is coming from.  It is in our mindset by default to think radically different from what we do and how we do in the end. Human thought process and actions are not necessarily coherent. Very honest, smart and neat narrative. Two thumbs up! Keep writing.