I don't know dude what you really want from this mere thread. No one can change you but yourself. You can see others as examples or motivation, but after all it is all upto you. I don't know whether you are suffering from a mild depression or an anxiety attack, but don't you worry Pal. Everything has its reason in this mysterious world. Let me tell you a story-not exactly a story, but worth telling you at this moment. Once I was telling my cousin not to eat too much as he was eating voraciously as he was chubby and the consequences of being obese. You know what was his answer! He said, "Think this way." "What if you have suffered from severe life-threatening disease and can not eat anything." He said, "Enjoy every bit of it (in fact, he was eating whole pint of ice cream) and just learn to relax." He is right!!! What if you were born unpriviledge in some corner of the remote mountatin, where you will have a meager opportunity to go to school for read and write, what is you were born as limbless, what if you were born asfdeaf, what if you were born blind, what if you were in a severe accident and become paralysed, what if.......etc,etc.... Compare to them, you are lucky!!! Chill out Pal!!!