"I feel like I am trapped inside some kinda hole." illusionation ji there is no hole as such. It is just an illusion. It is something that your mind created so that you stay in the USA with all the comfort and luxury. Many people have returned to Nepal and have done very well. They have made significant impact in the society. The only reason that you do not hear about them is that they don't come to Sajha and vent their frustration out, they are not reported in Kantipuronline, etc. But there are people who have actually gone back and done very good. So, if your heart is telling you to go back, you should delete the hole that your mind has created and just go. Trust me you will be happy in few years.