dear Balbhadra bro, I dont know how you find so much busy time in your busy life to spend so much time in sajha.com. Seems pretty amazing to see posting by u in every thread. Well its nothing that concerns me, just curios. seems like u had pretty rough time out there. sorry to hear ur story bro. you know on the other hand though dont u think its an experience that makes one young and new Nepali boy more stronger and well known guy about the life. both mentally and physically. i can just sense it from your writing that you are so much more grown now than u had been before. I think that OC must have gave u something that helped u get here. And u know one more thing. I think u r gonna go back to OC again, since u r a veteran now for that place ::))) and already know what to do like those other hypocritical Nepalese you mentioned.