Racheeta: There are too many issues here. I second Catchengle's opinion. Life is bigger than anything else. You must be just 21-22.......you stll have so much to live. You are too young to think you are seriously in love and can die for this guy. FOCUS on your EDUCATION FIRST! Go to the local driving class and get your driver's liscence. YOU are in United States...not in Nepal... here you are self-sustained. There is no cultural/traditional backholding to your going out/dining out alone.....you know what i mean... you can go to movie alone and yet you feel safe here..you can go to dine alone and yet nobody will mock you...you can travel alone and nobody will raise their eyebrows. GET THE POINT???? Take all the good things that US offesr to you. Once you conquer your fears and loneliness....you will feel the strength to do anything you want in life. Meanwhile.... I may not suggest you to dump your BF...just try to look at things from his perspective too. He is there alone in familiar surroundings...in place where you used to be and now is VOID due to your absence....he has to live that emptyness everyday (that is if he truly loves you!).... sot that is only natural that he taunts you sometime....THAT IS HIS INSECURITY manifesting. For crying out LOUD...you are in a country which depicts herself as free and independent...and people in nepal also sees it as a country which has lots of moral vices. So, my point is....he is just feeling insecure and scared that he may lose you in all this web. He is being delusional. And when you colored your hair....he is more scared because he thinks you are coloring yourself in the colors of this society's fashion. My guess is.... you must have been pretty homely gal back in nepal...and he always perceived you as someone so pure and diffrent that all of his other "kety saathharu".... now that you took one step...and he fears you rea becoming them. THE KEY to this relationship would be understanding, clearing out misunderstanding, and CONVERSATION!! what you told us in sajha...tell him.... write to him if you cant say in so many words.....writing is very powerful. If he still does not understand,,,,, then this relationship may not be worth your emotions! Email me if you would like to talk more. I wish you all the best in whatever step you take....except for pushing yourself further down in the quicksand of melancholy!