dear mabf I am sorry if i really hurt you. i did not mean to hurt you. I am telling you. close your eyes, take a long breath, say" lord i am sorry for every misdeed, i would like to return back to my wife, and i will never betray her". Just forget the girl friend and tell her that you can't destroy 4 lives. then, one day you will realize that you did a good decision in your life ever god bless you