I feel you bro...I went through a very similar tragic scenario about a month ago and it was perhaps one of the most heart-rending moments in my life. I thought I lost everything and blamed myself for all the misgivings. But as someone said earlier, the show must go on...Here I am today, stronger, wiser and more content with all of life's experiences than ever before! ...though I still think about her every night when I'm lying in bed!