amazing bro...im kinda speechless(well duh!kinda inexperienced in such stuffs so dun take me or my words too seriously..just need to get some thots out :oD hehe) anyways all this kinda seems ironic doesnt it?it does to me..(well the world is full of irons..and yeah we are always asked if we are gettn enuf irons?watever ;oP hehe seriously i hope i dun stay away from this 'topic' too much :o| )...me no Dr Love ;oP..so i know not wat love is(well i never thot i could ever define it tho we dun stop tryn do we?..can love ever be defined with meagerly words?)its feelns that we feel towards others(and maybe with oneself too?hehe)..feelns that just wanna burst out?which cant really be explained.. but if one tries to think it logically(well if we have the same wavelength and wat i find logical u might too? ;oP) and try to not dwell on the unexplainable..u said u been together with her for 2 yrs now..and as a bf and gf..there was this programme which i bummed into..it was a study on human beings habits..esp on attachment..to cut it short..it kinda showed that any two person if they are together for "enuf" time even if it was just physical relationship..they do get attached..and when they have to part..they find it hard..which is like duh!everyone knows?;oP anyways ur gf(ex?:oS hope not*touch wood*) well the things u said about her..well i dun think there are that many ppl like her..so far like u 'confessed'?hehe..she seemed to be the one always giving in the relationship...she def sounds amazing!!!(just like ur nick?coincidence or fate?;oP hehe)im sure there are tonnes of things about her u liked even when u thot u didnt..if not u wouldnt have been with her for 2 yrs?like u mentioned u were takin it all for granted then so hardly did notice anything much.. and to cut it even shorter hehe...ur askin is it just ur ego stoppin u from lettn her go or more?well i dunno if ego could be the right word...but im sure watever is stoppin u from lettn her go is more than just one thing..dun u think so?things like attachment(esp after 2 yrs..both emotionally and physically..)..realisation that gals like her who gives and gives without askn much back is rare...u def cant stop feeln ur gonna lose smthing great if u let her go and this doesnt work out hoina?and i guess u def lose smthing great(the things u say about her) if she leaves u..plus i guess ur feeln the anxiety and wat not..cos when we feel we are about to lose smthin than only do we realise a lot of things dun we?dun we always miss the things we lost and not the things we have?duh!;oP anyways let me end it..think im repeating myself(plus my mind is smwhere else right now.. as always :oS hehe)...hope watever u do(end up doing) kinda works for u..u already have some future thots that u wont wanna stay in that country while she never would wanna leave that place..which confuses u even more?makin u think it def wont work out?(when was long dist ever easy?hehe)while another part of u wanna try?cos u feel if she is the one for u..u can do it?so much questions..so much confusion?(well im not in ur position right now and im already confused :o| hehe) do u wanna take a chance of giving both of u some time..some space to sort out both ur feelns..time always helps doesnt it?hehe..or u feel doin that might be too risky..esp if that makes her leave u? good luck :oD..and im sure watever happens things will still be good..i mean experience is a valuable lesson hoina?;oP hehe..and oh i def will try to get pointers from u when and if i ever need to write stuffs in sms so be warned ;oP...i mean i guess it def is love(watever love is ;oP) if both were dyin in each others arms and still feeln happy (too much movies has brainwashed me :o|)i mean im not really a decisive kinda person kinda find it hard to make decisions..and in some ways..i feel that i will only admit to myself that i really really really loved another person after spending with my life with her?hehe yeah seriously been brainwashed by movies :o| hehe... --------- and oh btw loote bro..blunt hurts!seriously too much torturers there..i mean just kill with a sharp one instead of makin one feel more pain with blunt things pls :o( ;oP...but i guess i just had to say this..dun we always feel we(or another person whom we care about?) deserve better?aint that greed?;oP i mean when will it ever be enuf?;oP...seriously if someone deserves it or not..i know i def am not someone to judge(are u?just askn hai ;oP) but if he/she has smthing good..good for them?:oD oh btw just lettn out my (lame) opinion hai..def not debating/arguing ;oP...i mean i accepted ur opinion..will u accept mine?:o( ;oP good day!:oD