No wonder ImI, I still see the people with whom I was in relationshiop with. The one which ended sadly often haunts me in the dream.It is very normal if the relationship has not ended with the mutual consent & understanding. The only thing I can say now is , 'You still have the blues for her', I will suggest you to pay her a visit. I reckon she is JUST around the corner in the neighbouring state.That is gonna change so many things, either she will let you IN or shut the door.That is what you will need to move on with life without dreams. All the best!