Where is this going? This is going no where. You are stuck man. You are stuck fighting with your ego. You say you love her. But you don't. You just hate her because she dumped you. You say you want her back but why do you want her back? It's not because you love her. It's because you want to prove to her that you are so great that you are can forgive her. Come on face it. She won't come back to you. She doesn't want to feel guilty everytime she looks at you. She doesn't feel she did anything wrong. Just let it go off your head. She is not an angel neither are you. Just be a good human being, don't try to be something you are not. If you really loved her you wouldn't be writing all these here. You probably already told her that you wrote this here. She has paid the price. The other guy probably left her already. If you really want this to go somewhere, get on with your life. Do well. Give yourself sometime. Find a nice girl and marry her. Make your parents happy. Live your life... Years from now when you meet her again you won't even feel anything for her. You won't regret you loved her so much. Take this as a lesson not to do the same to someone else what she did to you. If you really think you can love someone so much, give it to someone who deserves it. Grow up.